{"title":"guess you had to be there...","description":"\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cstrong\u003e2.25-27.26 \u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eDear Sienna, \u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt was your birthday week, \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cem\u003ebetch\u003c\/em\u003e\u003cspan\u003e. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eHappy freaking Birthday!\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cem\u003eI’m not going to lie, this one has been hard to write ( \u0026amp; I’m not too sure why…)\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI was going to write you a cheesy letter about how much fun I had at the farm these last couple of days but I know you were already there with us to see it and let's be real, no one wants to hear about what the sunsets looked like or how the stars twinkled in bright constellations at night… All I know is that I never want \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003ethis\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e feeling to end. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI’ve been riding this celebratory high for five days straight now and I'm not eager to come back down…\u003cem\u003e(\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cem\u003eBut like seriously, can someone please leave me here)\u003c\/em\u003e, \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003ebecause I’m having so much fun right now and responsibilities don’t seem to exist…it's peaceful there and despite the creeping eyes of the neighborhood cats, you almost feel completely alone. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cspan style=\"text-decoration: underline;\"\u003eThis\u003c\/span\u003e \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e is the type of vacation my heart desperately needed: silence and complete freedom→ spending my days in a place where time is only a construct of our imaginations: I f*cking live for these moments.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cem\u003eFine, real quick\u003c\/em\u003e:\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e the sunsets on the farm look like golden quicksand, (the kind you want to get lost in) and have quickly become my own shared piece of cosmic heaven. The faint whiffs of pig manure are oddly comforting and further remind me of where I’ve chosen to celebrate the day of your birth:\u003cem\u003e I really think \u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cem\u003eyou would love it here\u003c\/em\u003e\u003cspan\u003e. We spent the perfect weathered day picnicking between the blades of overgrown grass and laughing, \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003e“I never want this day to end,” I told him. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eClinking his Corona glass to mine, one of my best friends smiles back at me, “Cheers dude, it's your birthday now too,” and I suppose he’s right. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cem\u003eSo cheers, Sienna, happy 25th birthday to us! \u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThese last few days have become another moment suspended in time I hope to never forget. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan style=\"text-decoration: underline;\"\u003e\u003cem\u003eThis last week\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cspan style=\"text-decoration: underline;\"\u003e\u003cem\u003e:\u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e another reminder of how truly blessed I am to be surrounded by people who truly love me, “We're family, sis, you know I got you,” he tells me from across our roaring bonfire. (\u003cem\u003eHis words warmed my insides the same way the flames had warmed my toes)\u003c\/em\u003e: he really does got me…and deep down, I know that \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cem\u003ethey\u003c\/em\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cem\u003e \u003c\/em\u003eall do. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt's funny how time can soothe the ache of this missing piece you’ve left behind; even funnier were all the jokes we shared in the countless -unjudgmental- conversations we shared over the course of these last few days…I wish I could stay here. I had so much fun this last week celebrating this momentous occasion that I almost forgot that the only thing missing in this picture was: \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cem\u003eyou\u003c\/em\u003e\u003cspan\u003e. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eMaybe that’s why this damn thing has been so hard to put into words… that, or maybe it’s \u003cem\u003ethis\u003c\/em\u003e difficult because how can one accurately write out \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cem\u003eperfection\u003c\/em\u003e\u003cspan\u003e? \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cb\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003cstrong\u003eI guess you just had to be there\u003c\/strong\u003e. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003e…\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt was also the anniversary of our fathers passing... but instead of dwelling on who was missing from your own birthday party, I chose to celebrate: I celebrated you, I celebrated life, I celebrated in the joy of what it means to love and be loved by such amazing people and Sienna, I. haven’t. stopped. laughing... \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt’s moments like this that continue to remind me that the definition of sibling-hood can be formed and transformed in the people you choose to let in. I truly hope everyone gets to experience \u003cstrong\u003efriends like these...because I freaking love my friends. \u003c\/strong\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cspan\u003e\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eAs I reflect on the many intrinsic gifts I received on your behalf (\u003cem\u003emaybe one day I’ll share them with you\u003c\/em\u003e), my birthday gift to you is to continue this celebration in all walks of this journey I get to call \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cem\u003emy life\u003c\/em\u003e\u003cspan\u003e. In all its highs and lows, I promise to keep taking you on these adventures with me as long as you promise to keep watching. Another promise I intend to keep: I’ll always try my hardest to fill these days with pure, unadulterated joy because that was the very essence of you (\u003cem\u003eand him, tbh)\u003c\/em\u003e and in these very moments I know that you are truly \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cem\u003e\u003cspan style=\"text-decoration: underline;\"\u003ehere. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/em\u003e\u003cb\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI love you, little sis. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cb\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cspan\u003eHappy Birthday.  \u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e\u003cb\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003c\/b\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cem\u003eLove, \u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp dir=\"ltr\"\u003e\u003cem\u003eSissy \u003c\/em\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e\n\u003cp\u003e \u003c\/p\u003e","products":[],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0793\/4171\/5710\/collections\/Birthday.png?v=1772928840","url":"https:\/\/mkynsp-jj.myshopify.com\/collections\/the-beginning-of-the-mercury-retrograde.oembed","provider":"the letter_33","version":"1.0","type":"link"}